bucketofsand287

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 05:23:14 GMT

if i just got one more hour of everything life would be great

Sun, 27 May 2007 04:19:29 GMT

I kind of forgot about this thing. I havent updated in months and I guess now is a good time.

Things are strange right now. Everything is so different from how it was a couple of months, even a couple of weeks, ago. I guess it's good but at the same time there are a lot of things that I miss. I hate going into detail so I'll leave it at that. I went to a memorial day BBQ/party thing today, it was spontaneous and entertaining. I'm pretty much done with school and I dont even try anymore. I wish so badly that I could stop going to school and graduate already. Lately I have used the dumb phrase, "you can't have your cake and eat it too." I don't like the phrase, but it works so well for the stupid problems I hear.

There is nothing else to write.

Sat, 25 Nov 2006 04:30:07 GMT

so my headband fell into the toilet today .. i got really sad .. but it was so funny

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 02:52:48 GMT

work was stupid today .. these two guys came in and bought the illuminated palm tree though and it was pretty funny. the other day a man got mad at me because i wouldn't give him a penny .. he told me it would never happen at wegman's and that i shouldn't refuse to give people pennies because it's bad customer service. whatever. they no longer have cherry slurpees at the sev by my house .. i had to get peach mango and it's terrible. i miss going to the beach and getting slurpees.

ahhhhh it's september!!!! what??

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 17:39:44 GMT

it's september already???? i don't want it to be. where did august go? i am scared to be a senior because that means this will be my last first day of high school no more school pictures (my senior pictures are soooo dumb by the way) no more using a locker .. no more high school stuff after this and i'm scared of it. but i still have an entire school year .. sort of there is all of that college stuff to be done this year which is scary too but i'm ready for it i guess.

ewelina comes home in like three dayyyyyssssssss!!! yay that stinker has been gone for way too long .. i have never gone away for almost a whole month so why did she? loserface at least she's coming homeeeeee yay. aww no but i have to work when she comes home .. aw noo

what have i been doing .. uhhhhh some six flags .. i got a real bookbag for school and it's strange because i haven't had one since the sixth grade .. hmm i was in a stupor for a few days that scarred me a little .. uhmmmm i have been working too much .. i watched hamlet .. it was horrible i also watched some other horrible movies and have been wasting away my last days of summer but it is all good because i'm wasting them in a good way.

the end.
ciao

I don't want to go back to school

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 15:01:16 GMT

so i don't want to go back to school .. i wish i was going to college instead of back to high school. i really wish i was going off to college and getting ready to experience all of that .. but i'm not i still have to wait an entire year. i think i want to go now because i just visited a bunch of colleges. some people are so fake it's ridiculous and i just realized this too.. it's horrible and annoying. i hate it. oh yea i went to salem and hated the school so we just spent the next day in boston. i thought boston would be completely different .. a little more like nyc .. but its just full of old men in suits. the next day we went to providence .. ahhhhhh i love it seriously i loved everything about it. some stupid girl at the hotel was like the schools you're looking at are party schools which made me mad because she made the worst face ever when she said it. she was stupid and i loved the school. oh i also saw scsu .. gah it was horrible and huge and i def did not like it. all in all the trip was pretty great and im glad i got to see boston and providence and i got to know my aunt a little better. oh i got these fake sunglasses from a flea market too .. they're pretty great. so it's been like a week and i miss ewelina she needs to come home. oh meg s. too she needs to stop being at the beach but at least meg comes home over the weekend .. ewelina doesn't come home until september .. what if she forgets english?!!??! i really want to see accepted. i don't want to work tonight i'm scared i'll mess up it's my first real night of work ..okay this is getting really random

the end.

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 04:18:52 GMT

so tonight was really bad .. i mean really bad .. i ended up angry and annoyed and i looked like a big douchebag because i yelled but i dont get why no one else did .. why did everyone else put up with it and make me look like a bitch when i was sick of it. thats just no fair.

i didn't realize that ive become the way i am .. like i wish i stopped it before it happened .. i don't understand how things got this way. although i wonder if i could have stopped it because i don't think i could have changed anything.

this might not make sense but to me right now it does.

the end.

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 18:28:24 GMT

whoops

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 02:37:33 GMT

i slept over meg mo's house for the first time in forever last night.. ewelina too and ewelina kept stealing all of my blanket even though meg gave me one so i didn't have to share with anyone else. what a jerk. i saw john tucker must die today .. it was pretty funny .. i kind of thought it was going to be horrible but i actually liked it.. after that i got some rita's and did a lot of randomness for the rest of the day. i got really scared at anthiel and thought someone was gonna jump out and chase us but no one did.

i found out some stuff today that's pretty gay .. i've been lied to hard core. it's so stupid when people try to hide things and they're not good at it. hi dumbass everyone was gonna find out eventually so stop lying.. you're not sneeky.

i'm scarred for life.
okay the end.

Fresh Hair

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 19:01:19 GMT

I got my hair cut today i needed it cut sooooo bad.. it looks nice i think. i also got my eyebrows done for the first time ever .. ouch is all i have to say .. well it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. hmm what have i done recently .. uhm i hung out with meg smith and kelly .. she's pretty nice. yesterday meg mo took me job hunting and i got an interview at bed bath and beyond .. maybe if i get a job there they will let me in on what beyond is .. like that movie .. alright nevermind. well im not even gonna say i hope i get the job because that never works. i was supposed to go to the beach today but i didn't. i got some clothes after i got my hair cut and i got these bangles that i thought were cute but now they just annoy me because all they do is jangle. stupid. hey i think jenn is coming home soon oh and ewelina too .. i haven't seen jenn in like a month .. i saw ewelina a few days ago but still she shouldn't go away. okay this is getting boring so i'll end it here.

the end.

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 00:23:14 GMT

okay so i think i've been ditched by like everyone .. its so gay .. and i wish i had some like back up friends so i could go and do something really cool as soon as i got ditched .. whatever .. i also don't believe excuses like "i was gonna call!" well if u were u would have .. i visited stockton .. creeps me out that like 20 people have to share a bathroom .. my mom and i are visiting lots of schools soon .. i got hair dye since it was pointed out that i have bad roots .. i think i wanna dye it really dark at the end of the summer since thats what color my roots are .. but not right now .. ill stick with the same color .. yo today they were mean at the hospital when i delivered the baby hats .. oh well i got to leave early since they didnt have anything else for me to do .. i hope meg s. and i do something fun tomorrow we probably will. all right there isn't anything else to write

the end.
ciao

ohhhhhhhh summer

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 03:08:31 GMT

summer is so sweet. i love it. so i went to mexico and got back on sunday .. it was delicious .. i wish i took a friend or something .. but it was still great and i got tan and what not ... mmm mexico the ocean is amazing there by the way. aw my camera stopped working like the second day we were there so i have about twelve pictures. today was my first day at the hospital .. it was boring that's no surprise .. ten copies of a 35 page packet ..bleh. i saw "you, me, and dupree" when i came back and that movie is great. hahaha last night ewelina came up with the most amazing idea involving.. well i can't give it away but at first tennis balls and ice were mentioned.. and i wanted to do it so bad because its really funny.. oh that plan will be executed in the near future that's a promise. beach tomorrow .. yay. okay nothing else to write except i'm not ready for summer to end or even come close to ending. senior pictures? .. ick .. i love how the paper they sent was like haha sucks for you if you have tan lines because we can't cover them .. its summer i am supposed to have tan lines.

the end
ciao

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 01:25:19 GMT

ohhhh mannn .. so this summer is pretty delicious.. i miss jenn .. she called me like five times today .. haha i heart her .. i heart all of my friends ..i found some amazing songs .. i have a lot of new favorites .. i went to the beach monday and tuesday .. i went to six flags today .. oh and i had my interview .. i better get that job .. im so mean to some people .. haha i dont reply when they say i love you .. thats just mean and i know it .. everyone says i love you though even me its said so much .. the inevitable happened i called it .. ah some people are so lucky .. im happy for them though .. im not crazy and jealous .. i love summer that is all that can be said .. i have met some new people recently .. some good some bad .. im glad though .. i hope the monday beach ritual is for real and i wish ewelina could come .. dang pupp i ate some grossie noodles last night because i was that hungry and im hungry now so ill probably go make them.. okay no more to write

the end
ciao

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 18:28:52 GMT

I haven't updated this thing in a while .. let's see uhm monday didnt work out as planned but and it ended up to be pretty bad i still kinda had fun though .. tuesday was all right i think i don't really remember what i did .. but yesterday was eventful haha i hung out with meg s. and we drove around looking for something she needed .. we finally went to the right store and i acted like a simple bystander reading magazines .. some man laughed at meg .. it was so funny. these guys also screamed and said they hit megs car and then laughed when she made a scared face .. i didn't get why they did it but they thought it was really funny. ewestinka needs to come home.. stupid camping. orientation for the hospital sucked .. a lot. i hope it helps get me into college for real. i dont think im gonna take the SAT's again just because im scared i'll do worse. i donno why i talk to some people .. i really don't .. im so mean .. i def don't plan on doing anything with them but i still talk to them .. ill work on being nicer sometime this summer. i got limewire to work finally i'm still scared ill get a virus though.

the end.

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 21:00:28 GMT

im on the computer downstairs its pretty great no more dial up yayyyyyyyyyyy .. it's summer yessssssssssssss this past like week has been fun .. yesterday i went to the beach with meg mo meg jenn and ewelina .. i got so much sunburn but its already gone and im tan .. i hope i still go to six flags tomorrow .. meg mo lost her bumper .. it was chaotic .. i still haven't caught up completely on sleep .. on sunday i only got one hour of sleep and had to take finals the next day .. it was horrible .. im listening to mydelko fa <3 .. oh finals were horrible i failed physics thats okay though i'll still get a B in the class .. ah some things are so crazy like how ill never see some people ever again .. in my entire life .. im going to be a senior and that scares me and excites me at the same time .. i kicked off summer with a bang and it better stay that way .. well i kinda started summer last week on friday and kept on going from there but summer really started on tuesday since that was the last day of school for me.. when ewelina came over on tuesday i said like 50 times that jenn never called and ewelina kept telling me she did .. i still dont believe it haha ..i wish i didn't get all stupid and say stuff i regret five seconds later i hate that .. meg s. introduced me to the best song in the world yesterday ..gah this is so stupid okay bye

the end
ciao

asjhdbgjhdbf summer!!!

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 23:37:08 GMT

just like everybody else .. im dying for summer to get here. i cannot wait any longer and if i do .. well .. no i just can't wait. my pool is open and that means it is officially summer. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. i wish i knew the recipe to that blueberry cake stuff, i would make it and eat it every single day.

some things make me wanna cry so bad, like i just want to burst into tears but i won't do that because it's stupid and i know it is. i can't help it though. i feel like some things are happening and there is no way that i can stop it .. like i know its happening and i want it to stop but it's impossible .. inevitable even.

bah i didn't finish the english test today and we had the meanest sub ever .. like i wanted to tell her to stop trying to become a teacher because she was just evil. i did pretty bad on the test too. there was a fight in lunch today .. sometimes i stop and think about our school and it kinda scares me. the boy was beating up a girl. so i went to get something to eat with my parents and the taught me these sayings i had never heard of and we went to see our old house and now its hugeeeeeeeeee. my mom called me fun and it made me think of meg and how she wants a shirt that says "my mom thinks im funny" because her mom tells her she is the funniest person in the world. i wish they made that shirt .. it would be great. okay this is getting kinda long.

the end.
ciao

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 19:30:09 GMT

its the weekend thats pretty great .. i woke up at 1 today mm i love sleeping in .. i wanna go to six flags but it wont stop raining .. stupid rain

some people amaze me .. like when people live up to what others expect of them it surprises me .. i read that in a book but i never realized its true, it happens in real life .. people i know do it even if what others expect from them is bad .. they still live up to it in some way .. its pretty dumb if u ask me.

i hope i do something today i'll be kinda sad if i just end up staying home all weekend. i like how some things are going right now but at the same time i hate other things. i went to dsw last night .. they have some pretty great shoes .. i would like to go back and buy a couple of pairs but i couldn't last night since i only had about $15 on me. i heart lifetime movies they're so predictable but great .. hm this is pretty stupid ill end it here.

the end.
ciao

stupid askjhbfkj

Mon, 22 May 2006 22:51:05 GMT

i love being ditched .. i love it mmm its my favorite thing in the world .. especially when my close friends do it thats when it's even better! .. dtohudlhu sometimes my friends are gay as hell

so i got my new glasses they look okay i don't think anyone noticed .. but i notice and i like them .. i want starbuck's like crazy i have wanted it for like a month now and no one will take me .. i'll convince someone to take me one of these days .. mmm

i want a job .. its getting bad .. i need one .. mm dunkin donuts in the morning .. im going to west virginia over the weekend .. im kinda glad my brother is going because if he didn't i would be alone .. im fully aware that ewelinas parents will say no and she won't come but thats okay i cant wait for summer and for mexico! yay .. im sick of ewing

i got a 100 in english .. that's the first 100 i have ever gotten in a real class .. well i mean i got a 100 in gym last semester but mr. reynolds gave meg a 100 too because we both missed a lot of school .. it was pretty great actually we didn't have to run the mile .. i got a frame for my pastel picture its pretty .. now i have to find a place to hang it

this is dumb
ciao

rain rain rain

Tue, 16 May 2006 00:32:32 GMT

i would greatly appreciate it if the lightning stopped the thunder as well .. freaking i don't care if it rains but i don't like lightning and thunder. i actually love the rain especially when im trying to sleep

so i did basically nothing this weekend .. got my mom some presents when i went with meg mo to get her hair cut .. the people in bath and body works are so annoying oh and i hung out with meg s. aw we never hang out anymore since we don't have SAT class..my term paper .. bah i spent forever doing that crap and im going to have to fix it tomorrow. i hate school. i did pretty bad on the physics test im talking F not ohhh nooo a C nope an F well it makes me feel better that everyone thought it was hard and not just me. im sick of writing college essays in english .. 200-500 words my butt .. mine are longer than that oh well and they aren't written very well either .. i feel like i could write good essays if i felt like it but we do it during english in the computer lab and im just like bleh not in the mood

the art show wasn't that great mrs. egan didn't hang some of my stuff up and when i asked to bring it home she said no .. what?!?! its mine! i wish this entry wasn't so complainy but its easy to complain while updating because no is like shut up! haha like my mom when i went running with her yesterday she told me to shut up like five times so i laughed .. my mom told me when we go to mexico she will let me have a pina colada(sp?) .. my dad kinda laughed

i want to do things during the week or weekend i feel like i kinda just stopped doing anything .. hm but i also stopped doing school work .. dang i better start doing both of those things soon .. i want something juicy to happen .. not stupid predictable things but something juicy and great .. mainly so i have something great to write about in notes haha and also because it would spice up my life .. aw i heard a story today that made me wanna hug someone .. its so weird when people say things you don't expect .. its actually kinda great .. no more rides in the morning .. oh well ill just ask again haha im so annoying .. mm i can't wait for summer i ate some cup of noodle things today and it made me think of the summer <33..i dont even need summer just nice weather ..this is long and about nothing
the end
ciao

stupid job

Tue, 02 May 2006 21:06:12 GMT

well i applied for a job today .. i'm not going to get it .. as i handed in the application the woman said well i'll try my best but i have a lot to go over .. and she emphasized that a ton of people applied so basically that means no job for me .. it's getting really really annoying .. i have applied to a bunch of places and either didn't get called back or was told that they would see .. whatever .hsrojhgaldieuntflaskehfasioh4erjk .. all right now that that's out

let's see last weekend i went to six flags .. it was pretty great .. i saw the all american rejects .. they are pretty delicious .. haha i got sunburn on one side of my face because the stupid bleacher things were turned .. well yea .. i don't think i really did anything else and if i did well i don't remember .. oh i went to panera or something

well i don't want this weekend to come .. actually im dreading it .. bleh i should be ready since i have taken so many freaking practice tests but i'm not .. my scores go up and down depending on the day and how i feel and if i wanna be there or not .. so i'm hoping saturday will just be a good day .. freaking my future only depends on this stupid test i mean thats all .. bleh i don't want to get older and i don't want to apply to college .. i'm too scared i won't get into any colleges or i'll hate my college or something else that's really terrible

i just want a job to and get an all right score.. that's all .. not even great.. mediocre would be enough for me .. anything but bad

i want summer

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 20:18:11 GMT

let's see
this weekend .. hm .. on friday meg s. took me to ritas and gave me a ride home from school and what not .. then later i hung out with meg mo and we went to michael's and sport's authority and mcdonald's .. geez at sports authority the line that megs boyfriend was working was really long so she couldn't talk to him .. i told her i would buy something with my whole two dollars just so she could talk to him .. aren't i nice? yes .. well we found some ping pong balls that were $1.99 and three guys who work there were like ohhh yeaaaa for beer pong righttt get the ones with only 1 star they are super cheappp .. and meg and i were both like .. uhm .. haha so i ended up not buying them and all the people in the line went away .. then meg decided to buy something .. it was actually pretty funny .. okay this story is dumb so i'll continue with my weekend

saturday meg s. picked me up and we went to starbucks .. can anyone say delicious .. well we sat and talked about a lot of stuff and some people .. haha it was stuff that most likely will never be repeated again .. but the trip to starbucks was pretty nice .. haha i told meg to use the wrong entrance and it turned out to be a jug handle that led right back to the road .. heh .. well later i went out to eat and shopping with my mom .. i got the cutest sandals .. two pairs .. i think i love them .. i'm going to be really sad when they get dirty

today is sunday and i wish it wasn't .. i woke up at 1:30 today .. i couldn't sleep last night it was annoying as hell .. well when i woke up my clock said 9:30 so i just went back to sleep and it turns out that the power went out and my clock stopped .. i went to apply for a job today .. i put on the application that i can lift 50 pounds .. hah .. well i don't think i'll get the job anyway .. i really want it though the place it so cute and quaint .. well i want the job really bad .. i drove there though and it was in my car .. freaking that thing is so hard to drive .. well it's not really .. but i got so used to driving the truck that when i hit the brakes in the car it was like i had never even been behind the wheel before .. it was annoying getting used to it .. and this stupid man in a white truck pulled up like next to me when i was pulling out of the parking lot when he should have kindly waited behind me .. granted i was sorta on the left side of the road when i should have been on the right side but that doesn't matter! then he started beeping at me when i couldn't even go .. i hate that man .. my dad gave him the finger .. good .. haha so childish .. this is really long

the end
ciao

p.s. I finished Tart! A grand accomplishment indeed. I only have 50 pages to go in Ella Minnow Pea .. woo hoo .. crap then i have to read my term paper book

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 16:07:12 GMT

well last night was pretty fun .. i ended up driving to jenns .. and on the way i held up a really long line of traffic trying to cross that road i forget what its called .. bear tavern nah .. i donno its kinda highway ish but not .. so anyway i went to jenns and linka was there .. we forced jenn to make us dinner since it was her house and all and i tried pouring coke into my noodles which tasted like cherry chapstick .. dont ever do it its disgusting so we went in the hot tub when meg got there and then later she tooks linka and me home .. meg wouldn't let me grab any of the 50 cones that were in the road she kept threatening me and telling me to walk home

its crazy how fast people will talk about you .. like i never really thought about it until i heard it .. no joke it's ughh thats the only word to describe it .. i trust practically no one.. it's nice out i want to do something .. i never read my term paper book like i was supposed to that's a problem .. it's weird that even though i dislike some people i feel bad for them or like people when i don't know someone and the get made fun of i feel soo bad .. but i also feel bad when i'm mean about things and i normally end up saying "aw i take it back" because i usually feel bad like 3 seconds later ..i donno i don't think feeling guilty about being mean is a bad thing though it might make me stop being mean completely .. okay i need to go eat some pop tarts now and this is starting to bore me .. oh yea im like the best guesser in the world when it comes to stupid soap opera crap but when it comes to taking a test i can't guess for shit .. i wish it was the other way though .. i would rather be good at guessing on tests

the end
ciao

the weather is yummy

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 19:45:03 GMT

mmm the weather is delicious no one can deny that .. so .. i got a 9:30 wake up call like i asked for but when the phone actually rang and i heard my answering machine pick up i was like noooooooooooooo so i answered the phone and hung it up just so the machine would shut up .. hah .. well i woke up around .. i donno 11 or something .. called some peeps because i really wanted to do something on this fine day .. so i called meg s. and was like .. well i donno what i said but she thought i said im picking you up now .. and the whole convo was kinda confusing .. it ended up that meg gave me like five seconds to get ready and picked me up .. we went back to her house and watched antm and just pointed out what was wrong with everyone .. it was pretty fun .. i hope i do something else today i really don't wanna sit in the house but i kinda think that's all i have for today but oh well .. that's okay at least i got out of the house for a little .. oh well i went over meg mo's last night .. she basically fell asleep .. im sorry im boring .. haha and her mom walked in at exactly the wrong time when we were watching the girl next door .. haha it was kinda funny .. all right i hate updating in the middle of the day because who knows if something fun will happen or the rest of the day will just be boring .. hm .. aw i was really hoping that there was going to be ice cream sitting on my porch when meg dropped me off today .. i was hoping for it soooo bad

the end
ciao

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 18:35:52 GMT

hm .. spring break = steady downfall .. boo .. so i did nothing yesterday and today we went to pick up my pop pop .. then i just spent most of the day with my mom and grandparents at their house .. i also picked up some sticks .. haha i bet i looked super funny because i had to wear these heavy duty gloves that looked funny with what i was wearing .. meh .. i don't like that no one feels that they can confide in me .. it makes me kinda sad actually .. and then when i hear about someone having a problem or a secret i get all mad because i hear about it but no one will tell me .. then don't freaking tell me someone has a problem at all .. i also really really hate it when everyone knows something and i don't ughhh that makes me so angry .. well i actually just have example in mind .. but it still makes me angry to this day .. well back to spring break .. its beginning to suck .. for real

poop i don't like that this entry is all grrr i hate spring break because i'm definitely not in that kind of mood .. my mood is a lot happier than that .. sugar .. oh well

the end
ciao

hmmm

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 17:36:01 GMT

well im sick .. it stinks but oh well .. the weather is great .. i love it .. well spring break i don't think i have updated about it .. if so oh well .. hm friday stayed home then went to princeton with meg and ewestinka .. saturday people just came over and it was basically me and ewelina between people coming and going .. we layed around all day it was pretty nice to do nothing .. then well saturday night was interesting i thought someone went missing .. haha but they didn't

sunday .. in the morning me and meg went to dunkin donuts and then drove around for like an hour .. we got lost .. it was nice to finally get lost .. ive been wanting to do that ever since jenn got her license .. but jenn refuses to get lost and drive for no reason .. meg s. picked me up and we went to get rita's .. i love rita's ..hm then later sunday we (my family) went to visit my grandpa at the rehab place because it was his birthday .. after i came home i went to sleep at seven p.m. .. im great like that .. haha i slept until 11 the next morning

monday ..yesterday .. jenn came over we went to antheil then we went to taco bell and meg s. met us there .. there was a lovely little scene but it went away .. then me and meg drove to the park realized it was cold as hell and left .. ahah i was reading this magazine and meg threw it while she was driving .. well then we almost died .. but i won't go there .. haha .. my mom came home and took us to mama flora's because she was taking my grandma to get food anyway .. mmm the cheese cake there is pretty yummy

i realized today that i really want to go to macaroni grill .. i haven't been there in forever .. i need to find something to do today .. eh i actually wouldn't mind doing nothing .. i need to read my term paper book and i don't feel like it at all .. this entry is really stupid so it will end here

the end.
ciao